I couldn’t find much family photos with Mum in it, to put into the slide show for her celebration service. There were plenty photos of me with Dad and other family members.
That summed up how I felt about Mum. She wasn’t in my life that much. It was Dad took me to school on my first day, and she managed to miss almost all my significant firsts.
I held such belief until the day of her funeral. A relative of ours gave me a hug when she arrived at the service. She said to me with teary eyes, ‘I am gonna miss your mother, she had always been there for everyone and made herself invisible.’
Throughout the service, I heard Mum’s friends and family members telling stories of their fond memories of Mum. In their minds, Mum was this selfless woman who always shyed away from the crowd, just like the photos. She ran around to snap memories and hid behind the camera.
It daunted on me that she did the same with me. She worked hard and provided for our family and barely took any credit for that. I would prefer her to be a mummy bear to nurture me, instead, she was a lone eagle. I realised how much she had shielded me. I was just too frighten to look up to her when she soared with me above the storm of life.
Flicker of Thoughts 
Very emotional and sad. Some are too strong and independent to share their true emotions. And they are the ones who ensure that their loved ones aren’t denied warmth and comfort. It’s a complicated situation.
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Indeed. And mother-son relationship is often add to that dynamic.
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Beautiful remembrance of your mother.
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I thank God that I live with my parents so I have the opportunity to get to know them in their retirement. So when they go, I will have no regret. I hope my son will have that opportunity to get to know me on a deeper level too.
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Hi Cassa,
This was both, sad and beautifully told.
Some people, our parents included, are sometimes incapable of giving us what we need.
It is not that they don’t want, perhaps they just don’t know how. Instead they are working hard in other areas to make up for it.
May you make peace with the memories!
Sending you hugs and blessings! ♥♥
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Thanks Ana. That’s exactly what I wanted to express. 💚
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🖤🖤🖤
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I’m happy you had the chance to learn this about your mother and realize how much she cared for you all along. That’s not a small thing.
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The story is only fictional. But I wrote in with my son and myself in mind. I wonder if he will understand me when he grows up.
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🙈 I feel dumb now, sorry. But at least it shows the story felt true to life 😃
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Mission accomplished 😃, I am glad it feel true to life. I often do the same as you, to comment on a post. I don’t mind if it’s true story or fiction. As a reader, we comment on what we read and that’s the only information we have on hand. So never being silly. 💚
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