A Psalm

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Today I sing a love song to you my most intimate friend
You stretched out your hands to me in my distress
You embraced me with warmth and comfort

When I was stuck in my misery, drenched in my sorrow
you came from heaven and met me where I was

You are the most high and yet you came on earth to my rescue
I love you my friend! You are worthy

I am yours

I have written this lyrics and kept searching for someone to inject music to make it a trap or indie pop song. It is like two pieces of puzzles and I am only holding one of the them.

 

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When the night falls…she wakes electrifying
Waiting for her master’s calling
No name no pain this game, or is it a game? Is it a game?
When all chains, shackles, silk, feathers and leather…. Pleasure intense that’s what she is after…woo oo oo oo
When the sun comes out…
she’s walking zig zag…zig zag……
cos she had a wild night with her prince…she’s walking zig zag..zig zag….
……oh oh oh as mad as it sounds….
he owns her….he owns her…in total surrender.

 

The song took me back…

When I was listening to Kazu singing ‘Miss you so much’, tears trickling down my cheeks. It reminded me of the heartache of young love.

Kazu reminds me of the sweet love I could have had in my youth. The raw wanting of each other and smitten with one another.

When I was in my early twenties I was so confused and suffered from such low self esteem regardless how attractive I was (according to friends). I was awkward and shy with a tendency to run from love. Although I had a group of friends (mostly boys) to hang out with, I was lonely and so alone inside in particular when surrounded by friends.

I was looking at me, the early twenties self, when I was listening to the song. I walked through the memory lane, wrapped my arms around Kazu’s neck, tippy toes to reach for a kiss…

當我在聽俊輝唱《我好想你》的時候,眼淚漸漸地滾落到臉頰。

俊輝讓我想到青蔥歲月中錯過的戀愛,那种純真本性的渴望和如膠似漆的卿卿我我。

在我二十來歲時,盡管朋友認為我有吸引力,由於自身的自卑感和內心的迷惘,我總對愛情有著逃亡的趨向。由此行為上總是羞澀和囧。雖然我總和一群人(大多是男生)一起戲耍,但我的內心總是那麼的孤獨寂寞。人越多,越寂寞。

聽著俊輝唱著的歌,我穿過時光隧道,仰著頭,踮起腳尖,雙手環繞著俊輝的頸脖,迎接他正落下的吻。。。