We walked through the four seasons of love:
“Your smile shines brighter than the stars”, then he tilted my face and kissed my cushioning lips.
Oh baby! Fuck! Baby…
He was hurt; he knew it too well I said it out of my own insecurity.
The atmosphere was like a pair of ill-fitting shoes, go bare feet, or suffer the agony.
We ended our relationship.
Did our love just die?
to you
there is
no end
to misery
to me
the end
of you
cures
my misery
to kill
or
not to
kill
everybody wants a piece of her
yes yes yes
she over commits and
feels anxious to start anything
there are so many fishes
in the sea
busy busy busy
he doesn’t like to sit in boredom
hoping to catch one
it’s a long way off freedom
who knows what tomorrow holds
let’s all wait for
the last minute revolution
what if I fail
what if I am not good enough
what if I don’t matter
how about I never start
a chaotic mind
requires
an organised space
that’s why
I make my bed
everyday
I tidy up after myself
as I go
a calm appearance
hides
a turbulent mind
that’s why
I make conscious effort
to breathe
I delay in responding
to mayhem
Deception – painting by Jen Coffey
