Treasure

A depressed teenager, I was, and insomniac. People came and went like whirlwind on a daily basis which left me dizzy and confused. Music and books were my true friends.

I must have been fourteen or fifteen when I started to write poetry. I produced two poetry collections with themes in love and nature. They were more like scrapbooks filled with hand scribbles, doodles and glued on magazine cut-outs. They were the treasure of my teens, and probably the only treasure I proudly claimed mine.

I had a pen friend, yes, a pen friend. Strong and I shared a common interest in poetry. We had written to each other for over three years. We got to exchange our favourite pieces of own poetry. After so many years, he still kept my correspondence. I am grateful to him because he preserved a few pieces of my poetry from early days.

You may wonder what about those two collections. Well, this is what this short writing about. Be careful where you leave your treasure and who you trust.

My buddy Bupa and I were very close. We talked on the phone for hours every day. Β We talked about anything but nothing. In hindsight, they were mostly harmless banter but also completely time wasting. It seemed to me at that time of my lonely years, Bupa was my only trusted friend. When I decided to come to Australia to start a new life, I asked Bupa to keep my two poetry collections for me under lock and key until I returned. He didn’t say no. That was summer in 1998.

In 2014, I finally met up with Bupa and asked him to return my two collections. He told me he didn’t have them anymore. He threw them away because of fear of his wife’s jealousy. I was beyond shocked. The painful realisation of the little worth of our friendship had a secondary effect to the loss of my treasure, the loss of part of me.

In 2018, by blessing I reconnected with my pen friend Strong via social media. He took photos of the poems I sent along in letters to him. That’s how I managed to reunite with my teenage self through those poetry.

Trusting someone who are not trust worthy is a lesson for me to learn.

This short piece has been stewing in my mind for a while. I wanted to be a meaningful piece so I procrastinated. Now I wrote it, it is like a weight off my shoulders. I didn’t realise it bothered me so much. Now this is history, done and dusted.

Here are the English translation for the preserved early pieces:

Mirage

Wishful

The Appointment

Pondering

Unsettled

Fragile

Perilous

Sweater

 

 

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Cassa Bassa

πŸ‡¦πŸ‡ΊπŸ‡¨πŸ‡³ inquisitive, observant, witty, a thinker, was a misfitΒ child 😊

15 thoughts on “Treasure”

    1. Indeed. How’s his wife’s jealousy has anything to do with throwing my treasure away. Anyone has a brain after reading those 2 collections would tell they were written in a span of time, not a love poem collection for a particular person. Haiz!

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      1. Indeed, it should not be relevant to the sentimental value of something a good friend gave to you and entrusted you to keep.

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  1. That’s really sad, but 16 years is a long time especially if you had never had any contact in all those years. If it was me I would not have gotten rid of them but if my wife felt strongly about my keeping them she would have told me to find out your address and mail them.

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    1. If he wished, he would pass onto our mutual friend to safe keep. There is no reason he got rid of them without checking with me. I visited them both when their son was born so there was contact but minimal. I agreed with you and your wife’s action.

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  2. That’s heartbreaking that they got lost! But amazing that your other friend still had a copy of them! And you’ve already secretly published these poems, haha! I will read them.

    Jealousy is a terrible thing, and I don’t think a relationship can be healthy if jealousy exists. Freedom is one of our most precious gifts, and freedom to be friends with who we wish and who we need to is very important to me. Jealousy over an historic pen friend is even more of an humungous red flag! πŸ₯Ά

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