Sin

He wasn’t sure
why
he was hated
by his mother
Surely
she could not have loved him
by all the cursing
and beatings

She wasn’t sure
why
a boy she born
could not be a blessing
Surely
she should have felt the joy
holding him on her bosom

He wasn’t sure
why
the mother and son
could not bond
Surely
they should have been happy
that
the seed was kept
within family blood

Lightning on the ocean

I draw the blinds open
watch children playing on the beach
their fingers digging into the sand
toes getting sun tanned
chuckles and giggles trolling toward me
like the unforgiving waves

I once was that carefree
when we built this love hut by the ocean
the handprints of Lily and Declan
still hung on this silent wall

My mind is cluttered with last night’s terror
as ants lost their scent trail
the drumming in my head lost its rhythm
to chimpanzees’ screaming
prewarn me the coming of the storm

I grab my ears trying to erect the noise
clomp clomp clomp
here comes the tormenting spirit
the lightening flashes are blinding
they are lunging on my head

Whipped me once
Lashed out ten fold
Cracked me a life time

I give in to the chimps
hooting and screaming
at least I know what they are