Failed First Love

We both know
love died long time ago
What we are feeling
is the remain of
yesterday

You are doing
all you can
to make up for
the illusion of
hurting me

I accept
your apologetic act
of kindness
to keep you from guilt

I am doing
all I can
to lock away
the past
where my heart
broke into pieces
out of warmth
out of blood
out of means
to fight

Today
we talk
we laugh
You are still
someone’s other half
and
I am standing on
wobbly knees
to withstand
what life
is throwing
at me
I wish you well
I am in love and happy

And yet
no one will ever
repair my past
where my heart
once snapped
in half