Irrational

when the sea breeze
blows through the curtain
and bekons me to be awake

I refuse to meet
its face to concur that
the sun is yet to set

it brings me
no new hopes
as it has been
for decades

my monologue to the void
through the land breeze
only makes its way to you
at nightfall

this is
the natural phenomena
I cannot transgress
then why am I still
endeavoring to reach you

張愛玲 《半生緣》