Grieving the Autumn Rains I

This poem was written by Du Fu in 754. He was a Chinese poet and politician of the Tang dynasty.
Alan Steinle (Alan’s work) and I worked on the translation together.

秋雨叹三首 (一)

雨中百草秋烂死
阶下决明颜色鲜
著叶满枝翠羽盖
开花无数黄金钱
凉风萧萧吹汝急
恐汝后时难独立
堂上书生空白头
临风三嗅馨香泣

The grass has decayed from all the rain we’ve seen,
But the cassia below the steps remains bright green.

Your feather-like leaves escaped the autumn showers;
Like golden coins are your many blooming flowers.

You can feel the bitter wind’s persistent attack;
Can your stalk endure the force, or will it crack?

Above the steps, I let down my graying hair;
I smell the fragrant cassia, but I feel despair.

My Favourite Person

The Living Poetry prompt – kinfolk

my favourite childhood memory is
curling up to my great grandmother
listening to her sharing stories of her life

I got to know her nine brothers and their fate
one was an infant death
another died in a city bombing
two were sold as slaves
four were lost in war
one was too weak to go on

I met great grandfather from her smile
teenaged bride and young groom
he was handsome and dashing
a captain of the navy
served the Qing Emperor
died young at the sea

she was a widow at thirty-five
sent off the concubine with golds and silvers
escaped two wars with her two boys and a blind mother

she fed her family by serving in a colonial mansion
where she witnessed the good life of pet dogs
she wished her next life came back as a fluffy white puppy

when great grandmother reached retirement age
the cultural revolution broke out
she was sent to the Black Hill carrying mud for construction
and was sent home after contracting tuberculosis

when she was seventy years old
still
she ran a family day care
and home sewing business

I used to tell her I love her
when I grew up
I would travel to Spain
to make a good living
and I would send her 99 pesetas each month
so she would have a good life in old age

when I was a teenager
she rebuked my parents not letting me wear crop tops
she also told me not to marry a white man
because they have big penises

the last question she asked me was
“When are you coming home to see me?”
I said
“When I save up enough money to buy a plane ticket.”
great grandmother passed when she was ninety-seven
she dropped like a ripened fruit from a tree
peaceful and fulfilled

I did not make it to her funeral
that remains to be my greatest regret
till this day

 

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(My great grandmother Zhou Weiying 1904 – 2001)

 

A Lone Man

He walks the narrow tracks
among ferns and mossy rocks
on quiet weekdays
The sound of birds echoes off the carved stones
plays the stream like a Guzheng
When the city is hustle bustle
he feels completely at ease

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Photo by Cassa Bassa at Mt Wilson, NSW, Australia

 

Between a Rock and a Hard Place

I don’t know what to do
except sobbing with you.
I would love to give you the world
God has intended for you.
But I have found myself
standing in a place
living the wrong life
or
I am taking up a heart’s space
by being in the wrong time.

woman looking at sea while sitting on beach
Photo by Pixabay on Pexels.com

The Promise

At times,
our world seems so dim
and no light can penetrate.
Our heart bleeds out.
It feels dawn will never come again
and we will never regain strength.

When I read,
“The sun will be turned into darkness
and the moon into blood.”
I know the peace and hope are coming
when the lion lies down with the lamb.

full moon
Photo by Alex Fu on Pexels.com

Prayer for My Brothers

Today I see the vibrant sky through a slate filter
The heaviness of it descends to cause me pain
I curl up in bed in fear and despondency
bearing a fraction of what my brothers are enduring
My brother with a weak heart
My brother with a diseased bowl
My brother with constant pain
My brother with a hurting heart
All you endure collide in me
I collapse in despair
I lift up each of you and place you into God’s palm
And I go free

Photo by Cassa Bassa at Hunter Valley, NSW, Australia

To the Jealous Girlfriends

I love your man as my own brother
You have a chance to be my dear sister
All my deeds are in the light without shadows
My only scheme is to love you both as one

I am sad
But I am happy to disappear
It pains me to watch little trust you two share
I am standing on the hilltop
watching you slowly burn in jealousy

man looking at the mirror in holding his face
Photo by cottonbro on Pexels.com

Do and Be

Life is fragile when we think it will go on.
Do things you always want to do and you don’t need to be ready.
Go places you always want to be without planning.
See people you want to see just because.
Say I love you to someone special and not worry if you hear it back.
Life is fragile and you live it as intended.

 

Another Fairy Tale Ends

The Living Poetry prompt – bench, rain

Continents apart day after day, “When you come back, I’ll be here.” I remember you said.

I am standing here foolishly holding onto a distant promise soaked in the winter rain.

The bench is painted red.

Is it a sign for good luck or just man made passion to hide the worn-out memory?

We need to be sure there is nothing left to say, to explain, to retain.

Pain, I finally ready to let go.

It shivers out of my heart into the cold.