birds sing like any other day
I hear
just my brain does not register
wear a floral print dress today
I hope
it will brighten my day
big breakfast light lunch small dinner
I prefer
coffee after coffee, dark ones
say I love you and be extra helpful
I’ve mistaken
everybody is so in lack
go for a stroll
I wish
my legs are not filled with lead
take a bath
I imagine
the tub may become a crime scene
perhaps be spontaneous
I know
making a suicide plan is
plan to fail for
a perfectionist
like
me
la la la la la…
you sing to me earnestly
hum incessantly
your pitch break through the frozen panes
guiding me to sail the stormy flakes
la la la la la…
I respond to you hazily
haing in tune
searching for the warm glow
in the fortress of snow plains
are you there
are you there my love…
you sing to me earnestly
hum incessantly
your pitch break through the frozen panes
guiding me to sail the stormy flakes
over here
over here my love
I respond to you desparately
haing in sync
searching for the rescue light
in the fortress of snow plains
I am yours
I am yours la la la la la
you sing to me earnestly
hum incessantly
make me whole
make me whole waah waa….
I give out despondent cries
galvanising another court of ice sculptures
i wonder why
the pool guy turned up for work
in Speedos
is it necessary?
what if i change into boob tubes
staring down the runway
meh
it is not neccessary!
If you would ever know
my deepest desire
to have you relentlessly
The post passion ignited combustion
restlessly unsettled
swirled its way to the pilot light
adrenaline fueled exhausion
forged ahead to final explosion
into crimson chaos
My soul swaying the brush strokes
fashioning a pair of red dust dolls
in the purest form of creation
Selah
It is done!
Have you ever
Have you ever wanted someone so much
It crippled your mind
Have you ever needed someone so much
It burned you alive
You spoke my heart out in my ear
So I am under no illusion, delusion, of this resolution
There are ripples, a volcano, firecrackers, hot springs in my heart
I lay face down to keep them simmering, stewing, supressing
Sulphurous fumes bubbling up hot springs
Pressure cooker letting out scorching steam
Our giggles channeling burning needs
a blessing or a curse
ability to see the end
standing at the starting line
what’s in between
my zone out territory
are many animations
ants on a hot plate
octopus in frenzy delinquency
penguins in distress
snails on strike
for self amusement
I dream up mismatches
hopeless romantic and psychopath
rescuer and victim
provider and freeloader
it doesn’t matter in the end
harmony or dissonance
started at the same line
ended in destiny
what’s in between
test of patience
with my eyes close
remembering the care free
once in my possession
late summer days
sky blue as the clear reflection
of a still lake
under a swaying elm tree
watching the hula dancer
whirling the grass skirt
the sporadic sunlight
playing laser skirmish
I surrendered with
straight lined eyes
escaping its piercing
perfect timing to drift off
in the midday heat
tropical islands
prismatic corals in crystal water
hot breeze brushing my sundress
the hula dancers
whirling their grass skirts
swallowing down my dry scratchy throat
thirsty for the fresh coconut liquid
olive tanned skin man
cutting coconuts with a machete
thud!
thud thud!
no signs of coconuts
only pigeons
pecking lawn grubs
the intermittent sunrays
still fairly playful
I surrendered by
packing up my picnic rug
concluded my dreaming of the day
Flicker of Thoughts 