luscious green panes lead
to the heart of surrender
it hears all the secrets
like a priest listens to confession
follow the Laurel screens
to the labyrinth’s core
lay down all burdens, shame and guilt
like an arctic fox
senses the coming of spring
to shed its fur
the chance of retracing the steps
with renewed hope
a new beginning
a new spirit
a new life
I had two dreams
never thought they would come true
for I did not know one led to another
I had lived in a slumber for so long
never knew I held the key to these dreams
so I was stuck on the detour to nowhere
I was dying of exhaustion
desperately seeking a spring
to continue on the winding road
at the beginning of the 365 day journey
everyday life aroused no emotions in me
all I could manage was
to do the only thing that would
bring me relief to this numbness
I poured out my daydreams on paper
I am halfway to the end of the 365 day journey
the tingling in my brain
the restless finger tapping
the nourishment from the spring
living my dreams day and night
at the end of the 365 day milestone
skipping down the dream pathway
the key around my neck
to the sunlit conscious tomorrows
House is sold at the fall of the hammer
I secretly wish I would experience
a rush of sadness for losing a home
I PET scanned my brain hoping to detect
any remembrance more than an empty shell
with forced smiles
all the eggshells I have walked on
turned into ashes scattering in the garden
feeding the bird of paradise
7 Christmases of opening gifts of unimportance
7 Easters of egg hunt for children’s laughter
7 years of prayer and supplication
House is sold at the fall of the hammer
a weight has fallen off my shoulder
the crown stripped off the prince’s head
You made me from your visions and dreams
before you knew me
I was only an optical illusion
I came like a dandelion
rootless and forever wandering
home was never a destination
Then we laid eyes on each other
my fragmentation jigsawed into your reality
your brokenness assembled into my habitation
When the music starts
let’s waltz away to
our life
our home
in absolute
abandonment
today I received your heart
across the ocean
it clicked with my half
to fill the void
I feel whole again
and yet
this return took all away from
your empty shell
left soulless
dragging along the mundane
a sacrifice you made
so the last bit of remain
has to die
before newness
bears fruit
we are walking cripple to search one another
you cup your heart in your palms
I draw a curtain to my void
your core sings out to mine
I peep through the drape
I feel the tingling on my lips on a sleepless night
your burning words restrain stirring my soul to restlessness
let the cool pale moonlight tame the hunger
let the waves staggering to ease the longing
I sleep with my right hand holding my left
my hands become yours
I wake up with your warmth lingering my breath
what better way to greet a new day My Love
if you hear me
shhhhh
keep dreaming
