Writer

If I keep writing about someone else’s story
The ache in my heart will have hope to transform into something beautiful

3am Ponder

When your arm stretches out
I don’t have to take it
just let you hang
Soon, you’ll grow droopy
like my eyelids
fighting a losing battle

All the decent men and women are taken
I am left alone to ponder
at 3am
and trying to arm wrestle 
till 5am
then I’ll feel like a pathetic winner
that defeated sleep

Soak

Calm waves
rolling in and out
in rhythmic heartbeats
A lone dragonfly
hovers over
in tango steps

I am
floating on
the healing ocean
stretch my back
looking at
the silkworm woven sky

My skin
turns into a prune
resign from the soak
Up I go
to chase the noon sun
on wet sand

Summer Dry Land

Dead seedweeds under my feet
cut deep into my skin

They blanket the sand like the carcasses
in the scorching Sahara

Pain is not the sensation
nor hot

The ambiguity put me in a head spin

Tumbling thoughts fall on the summer dry land

The Winter Sunflower Field

Writer’s note – sometimes I write outliner things under the creative license.

The winter crisp air and the drew dampen ground create a sharp contrast which allures him to take a walk in the countryside fields where sunflowers used to invigorate him with life.

He drops the paint brush, pick up his coat and rush to the door with certain excitement. He is hit by the cold air once he gets to the court yard. He picks up his speed and starts jogging. His nostrils flare to breathe in more air. He takes of his winter thick socks and shoves them in his coat pockets. Now he feels the moisten grass with his bare feet. He picks up speed again running towards the fields. 

When he reaches the filed, he throws himself on a bed of harvested sunflower stalks with arms and legs fully stretching out. Now he has the full view of the star filled indigo sky hugging the voluptuous full moon. He laughs and howls in the open field, feeling the freedom and elation. 

He unzips his coat to regulate the elevated body temperature and unbuttons his jeans to give more room to his erection. Visually, he is showered by the stardust under the Milky Way. They make his skin tingling and form goosebumps allover. He holds his now throbbing penis and stroking it to the rhythm of his heartbeat. It’s a sensation that he has never experienced before. The polar opposite of the deep of the night chilliness and the warmness in his hand collides into an euphoric serenity. The stickiness in his hand and the wet grass tickling his feet settle in the dead silence around him. 

He slowly looks around, the grass which was a uniformed blur now is 3D and showing hues like Van Gogh’s ‘Patch of Grass’. His body temperature starts to drop. Frosty air masks his face, then his abdomen which causes him to shiver. The feeling of the urge to urinate hurries him up and starts to jog home where the unfinished painting is waiting for his final touch, or a start-over.

无奈

远远的
你站着
长长身影

默默地
我望着
喃喃自语

心灵的对话
越不过的闸
跨不过的域

Purple

My heart was bruised
fell from your pedestal

The red sky bleeds into the indigo sea

A hermit crab
hiding in its shell
dreading for the mermaid song

Mirror

She sees drowning beings
everywhere
reaches out her hand
to rescue
one by one
until
she is too tired
to move

The next day
she does the same
repeat
the next day

She can’t stop the rescue mission
because she is the one
drowning
Everyday

The saddest person
is often the most giving

Perhaps that’s the only way
to ease the pain
by focusing on others

Thinking about self
or being in touch with their feelings
is beyond what they can bear

Untitled

I stopped sending you letters
on your wedding day

Still, I keep writing
In my mind, you are still my loyal reader

Dreams are the cubby-house I built for us
where our memories live