Demolition

I am a zen temple
serene and spiritual
open myself for fervent worshipers

who would think
you brought a pry bar
to remove nails
which you thought are
bonding me in concrete
I trusted you to make me whole
but not to break me

who would know
you two used chisels
to carve my perfect form
into damaged sculpture
I am your flesh and blood
I have mistaken your love
to be unconditional

who would foresee
a zen temple
demolished by trusted followers
in the name of
self righteousness

Mood heels

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9 inch stilettos
another breakup life sucks

7 inch peep-toe pumps
retifying the fucked up project

5 inch cutout heels
after 5 drinks for a better tomorrow

3 inch wedges
weekend beach cafe stroll

Ballerina flats
I am human again

Depression

birds sing like any other day
I hear
just my brain does not register

wear a floral print dress today
I hope
it will brighten my day

big breakfast light lunch small dinner
I prefer
coffee after coffee, dark ones

say I love you and be extra helpful
I’ve mistaken
everybody is so in lack

go for a stroll
I wish
my legs are not filled with lead

take a bath
I imagine
the tub may become a crime scene

perhaps be spontaneous
I know
making a suicide plan is
plan to fail for
a perfectionist
like
me

Love song dedication

la la la la la…
you sing to me earnestly
hum incessantly
your pitch break through the frozen panes
guiding me to sail the stormy flakes

la la la la la…
I respond to you hazily
haing in tune
searching for the warm glow
in the fortress of snow plains

are you there
are you there my love…
you sing to me earnestly
hum incessantly
your pitch break through the frozen panes
guiding me to sail the stormy flakes

over here
over here my love
I respond to you desparately
haing in sync
searching for the rescue light
in the fortress of snow plains

I am yours
I am yours la la la la la
you sing to me earnestly
hum incessantly

make me whole
make me whole waah waa….
I give out despondent cries
galvanising another court of ice sculptures

Self conscious

i wonder why
the pool guy turned up for work
in Speedos

is it necessary?

what if i change into boob tubes
staring down the runway
meh

it is not neccessary!