Beyond Comprehension

A translation of Jun’s poem “未参尽的缘”

 

She is my past, present and future.
She is the incomprehensible fate of my life and death.
She is my beloved book, read and reread.
She is my root, let love grow deep into the ground.
She is my play pet in virtual world, my queen in reality.
Eventually,
I will turn to dust,
disappearing into the sea of her eyes,
grain by grain,
never give up existing.

 

未参尽的缘

她是我的曾经 今世与将来
她是我生与死未參尽的缘
她是我的一本书,掩卷后可再阅
她是我的根,让爱扎进大地
她是我虚拟世界的玩宠又是现实的女神
我终将变成尘埃,
一粒一粒迷进她的眼海,
终将不放松地存在

Suicide Note

I never know if there is a next life. If there is one, will I meet you again? To be honest, I prefer this is the end. Because no matter how sweet our love is, there will be more bile. I am incapable to be a knight to keep fighting for us. So, I choose to be a deserter.

I don’t know how much time do I have to live. I don’t know how long I will go on loving you. I still love how you appear in my mind. I still love your sound especially the way you speak. I even miss your once angry voice. But you are so calm and peaceful these days. And I too, love the content you.

I am willing to be an infatuated man loving you in humble distance. Perhaps for you, I am a masochist, a lower rib, a self fulfilled devastation. There is no time table for our love. Yet, I am counting down the days. I am giving all I can while you know I am a hypocrite.

I am glad that I don’t look forward to the next life. I am satisfied to surrender to a woman like you, a love like us. There are not enough next lives to match this passion, this madness and this loyalty in its totality. I have enough material to write love poetry to make up for the missing kisses and passionate nights.

I walk to the end of my life with worn out shoes in the company of your divine shadow and angelic sound.

 

不知道是否有下辈子,更不知道下辈子还会否遇见你,真好我不想有下辈子了,即使更多甜蜜,我怕更多苦涩,沒法做一个英勇的斗士,我选择做了强硬的逃兵。

不管今世还有多长,不管我还能深恋多久,我还是喜欢你一直在我脑海里的样子,一直喜欢你的声音,喜欢被你说教,可惜你不再凶了,你过于平静平淡,但我依旧在喜欢,我在做一个蠢男人,我把自己惨成渣了,再也不是花,我可以更卑微地遥望你,我可以就做一个下里巴人,一个傻球,我数着倒计时着哪天结束这段爱程,时间表沒有列出,我依旧信心满满给予所能给予的,不管是否虚伪?

真好我不会投胎下辈子了,这辈子投降了一个女人,这辈子投降了一段痴情,再有多少可能,再有多少辈子,我也终将遇不到,对她的痴心痴情痴癫,我够了,没够吻,没够性,够了爱,已足够可以写诗写文。

踏破铁鞋无觅处,佳音丽影伴一生。

Love in Silence

A translation of Jun’s poem 默爱 (Love in Silence)

When you try to make a name
as a painter
I become the sponsor
of your exhibition

When you write your heart out
as a poet
I am your publisher

When you are an author
written books no one reads
I learn to be a collector

默爱

当你是一个无名的画家,
你特想办一个画展,
我就成为一个赞助者。

当你是一个诗人,
你特想出一本诗集,
我就成为一个出版商。

当你是一个作家,
写的书无人看,
我就是一个收藏家。

Love goes on

This is an interpretation of Jun’s poem which was written in chinese.

雪后即天晴
冷过春会来
爱思念循环
情绵又一季

Blue sky peeps through the snow
Spring bursts forth the cold days
Love cycles amidst the lonely nights
We survive another season of separation

无尽之爱 Endless love

This is a poem I collaborate with Jun

昨夜
曲终人散尽
空余舞影梦现
舞台再出灵动佳眷
长袖翩翩
抛彩戚怨
今晨
余香袅未尽
佳人如影展幻
书屋香薰懵君自迷
睡袍污垢
缓延起安
明月
晨星连环
侬情我愿白首见
缘无尽
拥牵依恋
无悔近黄昏

last night
you appeared in my dreams
fluttering your wings
in an empty room
devoid of music

this morning
I woke up
with the trail of the incense
burning in my studies
mistaken to be
your sensual perfume
my stained bathrobe
weighted me down
with the dread of
a new day

I keep watching
the moon courting the stars
till dawn
a reality of my life
till I will see you again
when I am old and grey
you know my love
this endless reminiscence
I shall satisfy
till the last of
my breath

The river springs to the east

How I wish
love is like catching the subway
There is always a next one when you miss this one
The in between time is perfect for adjusting the mood
without overthinking who is to be blamed
But we all know too well
lost love is like a river springs to the east
we can never quite stop the flow of sorrow
until it floods our sleepless nights

 

如果感情象乘地铁那样多好
错过了一趟可以赶乘下一趟
之间可以收拾情绪做好准备
不用守株待兔那样傻傻地等
可惜感情却如一江东流春水
愁绪滔滔不绝浸湿无眠之夜

Samsara 轮回

Mourning a green lotus withered
before its season

The monk is chanting to free him
from all desires and notions of self

“My baby is turning into ashes!”
The mother’s wailing grips my heart
more than the hope for nirvana

Hair grey and frail
a mother waiting for her son’s samsara

少壮命早归
哭丧青莲衣
轮回成灰登极乐
慈母悲哭动天庭